It’s never been my goal or intention to turn the Scattered Fashionista into a mommy blog, but, being in the throes of motherhood, sometimes posts tending that direction are inevitable. This is one such post.
Recently I’ve been stuck in the mire of depression. Whether clinical or post-partum, I’m not quite sure, but it’s depression nonetheless. Those of you who fight this battle know the complete lack of…anything…that accompanies these seasons. Life seems pointless. I label myself a failure as a wife, mom, friend, businesswoman, writer, housekeeper, and woman. Yup, that pretty much sums it up. And it will always be this way, right?
This post isn’t about depression of any sort, but it is about regaining my focus as I fight through. Because let’s face it: for most of us moms, we don’t get the luxury of checking out of our role until we can deal with our issues. We have to deal in the midst of the issues/mess/maelstrom.
Are you with me in mental overload? My brain simply cannot focus these days. So it was a literal godsend one day when I was interrupted mid-rant with this thought: you need a mommy mission statement.
After surviving the day, I lay down to mull this over. The mulling was followed by a sister-chat discussion, in which Shaina helped me tweak my statement. And then the idea for this piece of artwork was born.
Aside: I’ve found that art therapy is an amazing treatment for depression, but more on that in another post.
My mommy mission statement: to raise brave children who love God and love people.
Why? Because it’s simple enough for me to remember. It’s also broad enough to cover what, for me, are all the essentials.
Why art? Because I need reminders in every room of my house. Beauty gives me joy. And the fact that this statement is visual rather than textual will keep me mulling it over more consistently. I hope.
For those of you who are interested in the process, I began by painting my canvas with gesso. After this dried, I did a grey wash with acrylic paint diluted with water. Next I created my diamond patterns using washi tape. (No, I didn’t measure with precision because–have you met me?) Using a foam brush, I splashed one coat of turquoise paint on and then removed the washi tape while the paint was still damp.
While the turquoise was drying, I downloaded the “Old Typewriter” font from dafont.com and created a document with Matthew 22:37-39 pasted over and over and over. Once I’d printed this on a thicker printer paper, I drew a heart-shape, cut it out, then crumpled it up a few times before mod-podging it to the now-dry canvas.
My final step was to chalk in my lettering for the word “brave.” Initially I had planned to paint this in either fuchsia or a bold yellow, but once I saw the white chalk, I knew that was the right color. I painted over the chalk outline with a thin brush and voila! A completed work of art.
Do you have a mommy mission statement, or a personal mission statement of any kind? What helps keep you on track on the rough days?